So in the midst of all that has been happening to me in the past few days i have to take care of my health and tend to my weight. I went to my Weight Watchers meeting and it proved to be another good week for losing weight. I’m now down to 195.6 pounds. It’s so good to see 200 pounds in my rearview mirror.
And now i’m moving on to my next weight lose goal. And that goal is to no longer be technically obese. In order for that to be the care my weight must be 191 or lower. I think i can get there before i go home to Cleveland for the week between Christmas and New Years.
The more interesting question is: what shall i call myself after i reach 191 lbs? Will i still consider myself to be a fat girl? What does being fat mean to me. Is it really as simple as saying that at 192 lbs i’m fat and at 191 lbs i’m not? Should i continue to call myself a fat girl until i reach my target weight and then stop calling myself fat? I wonder if i’m really a fat girl for life. After all just because i reach my target weight doesn’t mean i will stop having struggles with food. I will always struggle with eating. I will always have to watch my food. That’s the point of Weight Watchers. It’s to help me with a lifetime change because i have a problem with food. So maybe i’ll continue call myself a fat girl no matter what the scale says as a way to remind myself that i have issues with food that will be with me the rest of my time on the planet. It’s a part of who i am and so i will unabashedly keep referring to myself as the fat t-girl.
